Feel My Love

I know lots of things. I have lived life and experienced the joy of so many things - and on the flip side, I have had the burning disappointment of all the things that didn’t go my way.

I could say that I have learned more from the disappointments than I have from the joys - but I’m not sure that’s true. I think it’s just the disappointments that always stand out.

I still feel the pain from high school mistakes. From loving girls that loved you back and then changed their mind. Of being accepted and then rejected from this or that. And I don’t count any of those things as necessarily bad because I became so much more than I was because of them.

I came to understand that it was simply my dreams of the way things SHOULD be that drove my disappointments and therefore if I could just let go of that and take life as it comes then I would be so much happier.

And that turned out to be my little “secret of life” moment. Easier to say than to live, though.

I know I always talk about being happy – but damn it, I’m really happy. Half a lifetime ago, at age 22, I had no idea that this was even possible because it just seemed so hard back then. Sure I had fun (lot’s of fun), but everything was so hard.

It was hard being a grown up with all those responsibilities and stuff. But after a while it got easier and easier and finally I was able to laugh about lots of stuff that I used to not be able to laugh at – like myself…………

I still feel longing in life, but mostly now it’s simply something I observe in others rather than something that drives me to distraction. I am very content. I am very much in love. I am very happy with how things are inside of me. The outside needs work right now, but that’s another story.

I was listening to Bob Dylan’s Time Out Of Mind release in 1997 today at lunch and found a song I remember with such emotion. It’s called “Make You Feel My Love” and it was recorded by many people other than Dylan such as Garth “overproduced” Brooks and was the main song on the movie “Hope Floats”.

Great song. Spoke to me in 1997 about hope – which is the main theme of my life.

Back then I wondered how do you communicate with a girl and tell her that if she would just give me a chance that I promise her that I’ll make her so happy she will wonder why you ever doubted it? How do you let her know that if she just says YES, then you will take care of the rest of it?

Well, those questions have all been asked and answered………….

It’s hard to put these “deep thoughts” into words but I thought this song did a real good job.

Here’s the lyrics:


When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rollin' sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love

I have the most remarkable girl. She is truly the Girl Of My Dreams and it took me a long while and a bucket of patience to convince her that I was born to love her.

And I am eternally thankful to her for saying “maybe” and then saying “yes”.

Because of that, I wake up each morning and look forward to what the day will bring.

And I thank Bob Dylan and so many others who are able to articulate the feelings most of us have and put it in a package that we can experience over and over.

How cool is that?

Peace.